The Year That Was 2009

I'm going to do just quick review of my year:

So it all started of in Canterbury, hungover mess from the night before. Epic night doing some silly things but was most definitley memorable & spent with some very special people. However it all started to go down hill pretty quickly, with celebrations of my Birthday taking a nasty turn for the worse and was the start of a downward spiral to a very important friendship. I picked myself up, apologised but couldnt help but feel like i had take 10 steps back in time and was reacting to a situation exactly how i would of done when i was 17...
So i moved on and struck a strong friendship with two indvidual, fun guys which became my rocks for the next few months and they just understood me it was pretty kool. Spent alot of time in High Wycombe having some good drunken times. Most of March rolled into this just alot of going out and getting drunk, maybe to hide some feelings, that were pretty obvious so i'm unsure why i even bothered to hide it.
Emotions were running high through April, with a flashback from the past literally right in front of me, someone from the past bringing up everything that had been put to rest a long time ago, it was all a difficult time and it was whilist i was in this confused state of mind i decided to shut someone out of my life, long term.
The most successful month of the year has to be May i was made permanent in my job and worked bloody hard to get there. It as a time full of change, but a change i'm pleased i made and met lots of interesting people along the way. It was in this time i realised i loved having this life at work outside of all my socialising. It almost like this felt like the time i could show my mature side without some silly remarks. May was also a fun time spent going to some gigs in London Town and having lots of laughs with the besties.
June was a sad month, my two lovely friends packed their bags and abonded ship for a whole month. It was a long month with lots of time to fill, but it was just the start of a fun packed summer. I found it hard to juggle work with the summer arrangments with the friends, but i only had a small lapse, but i sure had a good time.
September everyone left and there was a massive void to fill. I stayed in for a few weeks, spent time with my family and just had some time to evaluate everything, it was really good. However i did get the feeling people felt that i was trying to go my seperate way,this wasnt the case, i realised that this going out getting drunk is a different Carly. Over this time although i didnt see people constantly i grew alot closer to some people that i would of least expected to. It was a pleasant suprise.
October was a time when my drunkeness got out of control and i ended up in such a state i was an embaressement, yeah it was funny, looking back i'm pretty ashamed of my alcohol abuse and really dont understand why i feel the need to do this...
So we come to November. The month i took a chance and it just didnt go my way. I guess i new it never could, i learnt that you cant tempt fate. I dont regret anything that happened, i just wish i got my happy ending.
I've ended the year on a bit of a low, everything thats happened in the last few months has caught up with me and i'm pretty run down and ill. Its nice to have so many faces back for christmas and i love that i have all these friendships back that i risked through the year, because i just didnt feel complete without them.
I look forward to seeing in 2010 with all the people that have influenced my life this year and have all played a special part in some way or another.
I have high hopes for 2010, it needs to be epic and i'm determined to make it just that....