Amazed.

What a week away from everything can do ay?...
I've come home feeling happy, revitalized and postive about pretty much everything, i was amazed by how much i missed my friends whilist i was away, but also appreciated that a bit of time on your own doesnt do any harm.
Lots of plans now, i'm excited...i just want to make the most out of what i have.
Not too much to ask for is it?
xx

Vunerable

Yesterday will be one of them days i won't be able to forget for what feels like the rest of time, it was one of them days where i opened the closed book i have been holding close to my heart for too long. I cried like haven't done since the heartbreak i will never really be over and realised that i put all my efforts of kindness into someone with the hope i'll find my happy ending. It never works that way and here i am feeling crushed and on that long road of self destruction i like to indulge in from time to time.
A friend gave me some good advice yesterday, look for other qualitys in people, i.e kind and considerate, instead of these people that drain me, use me and use this out of sight out of mind bulshit.
So nows the part where i have to pick myself up and put all these feelings back where they belong.