I've avoided writing anything here for quite some time now, two reasons i'm not sure who reads this and i think i was attempting to put on a brave face.
The last month has been a learning curve, not one i wanted to end the year with, but you cant tempt fate. I didnt learn anything about myself, i was everything i thought i would be and everything i should of been..but that wasn't right. I learnt more about other people and their indecisive outlook on their lives. I guess not knowing what you want can be a quality in anyone if you want spontanity, but this isn't something i look for.
Evaluating my own emotions i realise that i am willing to let my gaurd down too quickly, which makes me vunerable and easily hurt. As ever i have been broken again, but i'm strong enough to come out with my head held high and end this year on a good note.
People are coming home for the holidays next week and i cant help but feel they walk back after living their exciting lives to be disappointed with the black hole of home and i feel like i've gained/achieved nothing in the months they have been gone.
So onwards and upwards, i'm excited about what could happen next, but for now i know to think with my head and never my heart.
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