Wednesday, 10 June 2009

Labels.

i'm wondering how you get rid of a label?
You know the ones that people give you on first impressions, judgements or just "in the moment". I tell you what its tricky, the labels i have become opposed to include, cunt,bitch,liar and manpulative, not nice to hear ay?
I understand this is pretty negative view because my close buddies that know me now hopefully realise the real me isn't any of the above. Ok i admit i can be protective of my friends, maybe to the point where i should let them out of my reach a little and i admit i can be judgemental, but if we're honest to a certain degree who isn't?
Over the last few months i have tried to drop these labels, kept myself to myself, concentrating on work and just trying to live a life.
It hurts when something AGAIN comes back to haunt you, i do try not to dwell on it, but it annoys me that i can come out to be seen as the bad person with a motive, when all i'm really trying to do is move on from the past.
I refuse to rise to this anymore and i am sure to carry on making progress dropping these labels.
Apart from this one worry, i am genuinally happy at the moment. I have the most fantastic friends i could ever had asked for and i am pleased i have another life at work, where i can be the professional and the social life of a student.
Lots to look forward to over the next few months, a tricky time with two of my closest friends that have been rocks to me for the last few months going away, but i know it will make me stronger and appreciate them more.
I will be trying to update this more often over the next month, so for now cya x

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