Improvement?

Things have picked up a little over the last couple of days, mainly because i have been alone and been getting on with life, leaving as little time as possible to think about everything.

I often have sudden spurts of betrayal, thinking about how loyal my friends really are and who i can trust. The label of a "best friend" is a joke, what is a best friend? someone that does something they know will hurt you? someone that walks away? someone that doesnt give you a second chance? someone that uses the moto "out of sight, out of mind" if so i guess i have and have had plenty of them come and go.

I think i have found a friend that could become a soul mate, if they let me. I think we have the same values and want the same things deep down. But its whether other people let us become close and whether we can really forget the past, although i very much doubt that if people constantly want to relive the past.

I am going to try and kee my postive outlook, i have an interview next week that i really must put my all into, it would mean i have prooved to myself that i can see something through to the end, which i have never done before.

I realised i need to take a step back from my friends and the drama that envokes within it, for no i am going to worry about myself.

stay safe
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